Today I got a call that took be back 4-6 years. I’d barely gotten a blog posted when someone I care about dearly, called me accusing me of forwarding their mail from Colorado to Virginia. Yes, I know people normally don’t do stuff like that but she has a situation that is getting ready to spin out of control in her life. Her emotions are random and totally out of control.
I’ve been gone on vacation for two weeks, driving all over Missouri and Alabama and have barely been home four days and haven’t even opened all of my own mail. I have no desire, need or motive to reroute someone else’s. I haven’t even been to the DNRP office to start getting my home on the market yet for sale. I’ve been too busy and when I get home at night I’m too tired to try and go anywhere or do anything. I haven’t even set down to a decent meal since Sunday down in Alabama. I’m living on tea and water basically.
I hate seeing someone I care about tailspin out of control emotionally, but there is nothing I can do physically for them. I’m doing the only thing I can do, pray and fast and seek God’s face for an emotional healing for her. I’ve been through this before…the exact same thing down in Florida. I also have another friend with the same disorder, but she is currently getting help and therapy. It’s not really treatable unless they want to get help…or unless God intervenes and heals them. At least the later is going to visit an Apostolic church and seek God for a healing.
A friend of the former told me to cut off communication and I had to an extent, only forwarding necessary information about mail being misrouted to my house and praying with or for them. The last two phone calls were completely hateful and bristling with a desire to find fault and cause strife. I’ve chosen not to respond in kind, keeping a calm voice, explaining I have nothing to do with their issues, mail, etc. They told me they don’t trust me, and I can’t help that. I’ve made close friends, ministers and family available to them to talk to and get to know more about me from those who know me best, but someone with emotional trust issues isn’t going to trust someone they’ve met and gotten to know, let alone a stranger they haven’t met! Honesty is key and unfortunately I have not received that in the past from this person. Even in talking to me today they revealed they had lied to me in the past. It hurts, but I also know it is part of their emotional hurt. Not pain. Not fear. It is simply what they do because of their disorder.
Be ye also patient; stablish your hearts: for the coming of the Lord draweth nigh. Grudge not one against another, brethren, lest ye be condemned: behold, the judge standeth before the door. Take, my brethren, the prophets, who have spoken in the name of the Lord, for an example of suffering affliction, and of patience. Behold, we count them happy which endure. Ye have heard of the patience of Job, and have seen the end of the Lord; that the Lord is very pitiful, and of tender mercy. But above all things, my brethren, swear not, neither by heaven, neither by the earth, neither by any other oath: but let your yea be yea; and your nay, nay; lest ye fall into condemnation. James 5:8-12
James knew that if we lied about something or held a grudge against our brother we would fall into condemnation…not just with them but with God. We have no prerogative in the word to hold a grudge against someone. Nor do we have a right to lie to, for, or against someone.
I’ve cut off contact with them and all I can do is pray that God will heal them before their situation gets worse, because every time God has dropped a borderline in my path, it was only a short time before they rejected the healing and restoration of God and spiraled out of control. God doesn’t reveal anything unless he plans to deal with it. You can play mind games with man, but you can’t play mind games with God!
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